Cam Wong
MBBS, Mast.Critical Care
PGY3 Emergency SRMO
I will always stay positive, do my best and love/be loved

Here's to travelling into the future!

1. Starcraft II
2. Reddit.com
3. Whirlpool
4. Ozbargain
5. ABC News



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OSCE’s tomorrow. Finally getting stressed. Don’t want to do it, yet really want to get it over and done with. I’m sick and tired of doing physical examinations, taking histories and using procedural equipment now. Do you know how boring it is to continually wash your hands? And if you accidentally touch anything, you have to wash your hands again?

In any case, just wanted to vent and leave a note here on my blog for future reference that I did study for this.

Fingers crossed. =S
Rawr! Last day in hospital until next year! Hazzaah!!

edit: oh, world's biggest gif fail!!
LOL!! Oh well...

Labels: exams

/because of my high tolerance.
10:04:00 PM

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I've gotten my results back!
They went good, but not so good.
I averaged 54 in all my exams, so that's actually my best mark I've ever gotten in uni. XD
That's kinda spastic come to think of it.

I failed two exams, but passed the other two. I'm kinda cut that I failed two on scores of 46 and 47. (But then again, giving the circumstances surrounding my exam period, quite understandable.)
Got 63 and 60 for the other two.

So basically, I can only fail one more exam this sem. I'll try my best! Esp since this sem is meant to be heaps easier than last sem, I'm hoping I won't fall into too much trouble.

Extremely pleased with my results. Did you know that 30% of my cohort failed this sem?! That's unbelievable! =O I mean, we all complained that the content in the exams did not reflect the content taught in the semester, but still...30% is really quite something.

The highest mark was 78, so not one single HD. Middle 50% of the grade got between 52-55, so that pretty much tells you just how hard these exams were.

Will try my best to improve!! ><
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In other news, hospital now has a casual fridays policy which I'm not minding at all. =)
No need to look as spiffy as you normally have to, but again, nice to see that even in hospital environments that they're adopting new strategies to improve working conditions.

Labels: exams, medicine, uni, UWS

/because of my high tolerance.
7:44:00 PM

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So yeah, I'm back.
Thanks for the tags guys, you are awesome. ;)

New theme for a new season, and this one is pretty because it has a flash in it. *shakes mouse wildly across the screen* Look at that cloud go! Weeeee!!!

Umm...I finished 3 of my exams already. There's one more for me to do, Anatomy. That's going to be a little bitch, but nothing that I shouldn't be able to handle after those piece of shit exams they gave us to do.

Right now, I know nothing about anatomy really. =)
Hopefully by Wednesday, I will know the names of every bone, muscle, artery and vein as well as nerves in the human body and be able to identify what they are on a dead corpse.
How fun! =D
Someone can just like seriously, kill me now...

I can't wait until after that exam though...Major party! Although they'll be pretty shortlived, I apparently start again on the 13th of July. The learning never ends when you're a med student it seems.

Makes me just want to bang my head like this:
Oh well, things come and change. I've accepted that much about life.

Before I leave you all today, I'll leave 3 messages.
The first goes like this:
Good luck to the rest of you who havn't finished your exams yet! I'm sure the bountiful results you reap will all come from all those hours of studying you sowed. =P If not, then like I said, I wish you guys good luck, if not, the best of luck. XD
The second goes like this:
Thankyou for investing that time with me. I havn't exactly been the best at what I did, and no doubt contributed to some of the worst. But you stuck by me, day in, day out, and for that I am grateful. For all the things that we did, all that time that we shared, I will value every moment of it and it has been a great learning curve for me. I'm sorry for the things I couldn't do for you. Oh, and for the dangers that we lived through. I take my hat off for you.
You're stronger and a wiser person than my wildest dreams.
And the last goes like this:
I don't know how to code html. XD Thankyou blogskins for this blogskin, and maybe one day it'll come to me. XD But at the moment, back to anatomy studying for me. You knows what comes next:
Ka-Me-Ha-Me-

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Ha. =)

Labels: blog, emotions, exams, holidays, stress, thoughts

/because of my high tolerance.
9:28:00 PM

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The blog will be on hiatus until further notice.

I'm sorry. Feeling quite stressed at the moment. Things are just stacking up and I'll need to have some time to deal with it all.
To summarise:
1. Just finished Week 12 and doing Week 9 notes.
2. Doing week 9 notes although I only know about 30% of it all.
3. Formative exam was gg.
4. Family matters.
5. Overall feeling overwhelmed and needing to cut back on non-essential activities (Except basketball)
6. Needing an excuse to cut off leisure activities just to make myself feel better about it.
7. Mainly needing to make more time out of having none.
8. Angry at how smart people seem to know it all and you take an hour to understand something they get straight away.
9. Angry at stupid lecturers with accents you don't understand; especially if they crack jokes that you don't find funny. "Did you guys watch House last night?! How weird is Amber and hallucinations? Hall-lucee-nations... haha, get it?!" - "NO! I DON"T!"
10. Kamehameha!
11. Screaming out that word really helps me destress. Lol, that's funny, ain't it? XD That technique has worked for me since '93

I apologise for any inconvenience caused =P
Let's set an arbitrary date for my next blog post...say...June 18th?
Check back then.

Now, say it with me:
KA!
-ME!
-HA!
-ME!
-HAAAAaaaAAAAaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAaaAAAaaaaaaaAAAAAaa.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *out of breath*

Labels: bitching, emotions, exams, family, life, rant, uni

/because of my high tolerance.
11:46:00 PM

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A Sheffield man who lent a penniless Australian tourist £5 to pay for a ferry trip in 1969 has been repaid his debt nearly 40 years later.

While Jim Webb was out, a card and £200 was hand delivered to his home by Gary Fenton, to repay the money he borrowed when they met in Ostend, Belgium.

A note inside read: "To Jim Webb, a good man. From Gary Fenton, a tardy payer of debts."

Mr Webb, 72, has appealed for Mr Fenton to get back in touch.

Mr Webb and a friend were travelling around Europe in April 1969 when they met the Australian traveller, then in his early 20s, at a ferry port in Ostend.

He said: "A young man came up to us and said he hadn't got enough money to get back to England and would we lend him £5 and he'd repay us as soon as he could afford it."

The three men travelled back to England and when they parted Mr Fenton took Mr Webb's address, but he never heard from him.

In this day and age promises are made and promises are broken and you lose your faith in human nature Jim Webb

Then on Sunday, he returned to his home in Bradway to find the surprise card.

Mr Webb said: "I was quite emotional when I read it. In this day and age promises are made and promises are broken and you lose your faith in human nature.

"This was a lovely gesture. Forty years is a long time - it must have been preying on his mind that he hadn't repaid his debt.

"He said he was giving me £200 as that was £5 for every year that had gone by."

Mr Webb said the card explained how Mr Fenton, who now lived in Sydney, had come across his address while looking through some old papers.

His note said he had decided to pay him a visit and repay his debt while on a trip to London.

Mr Webb, who is giving the £200 to charity, said: "He didn't leave an address or telephone number, just an email address which I have tried but so far I haven't heard back.

"I am very sorry I was not in on Sunday... he would have been very welcome here. Hopefully we will be able to make contact, it would be wonderful to meet up again."

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I also found this touched my human soul. Just a bit. And that in itself, is awesome. Exam finishes at 12:30pm today, so after that, free again.

I have two words to say to that.

"Suit up!"

Labels: exams, holidays, life

/because of my high tolerance.
12:30:00 PM

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Just wanted to say that I'm feeling pretty emo at the moment...
Why?
I have to do a fucking supp. exam. Fuck you medicine. Sif be a bitch to me. I can only see a few positives from this outcome
1. For a person to do a supp exam, he/she needs to have only just failed the total course by a margin of 2%. i.e. Total mark was 48%~
2. I failed first sem by 5%, meaning that I passed this sem by a few percent.
3. Conclusion is: I passed this sem, but not enough to make up for last sem. Therefore, I need to do a retest on the 22nd December.


I guess this means I'll be hitting the textbooks again for the next week. Great, another 'stuvac'. So what this effectively means is that I won't be going out at all during this period. Not at all. So yeah, there goes my plans till the 22nd. Fuck. I hate fucking life. Even now I'm typing this entry from uni, where I'm supposed to be studying.

You know what gets to me is that I fucking tried so fucking hard this semester to get things back on track. Did my work on time, didn't bludge, and tried to make sure I understood as much as possible. So why is God still fucking with me? Sigh....

I guess this is it from me, no facebook+no msn+no blog till its over.
I can do this. =) After all, I'm in this mess because it is, no matter how I try not to admit it, my fault.

Labels: bitching, exams, medicine, uni, UWS

/because of my high tolerance.
10:55:00 AM

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Firstly, I think I should wish Daniel Happy birthday once again. Congratulations on turning 19 buddy. I really should get you a gift, but I can't decide what. I'm also writing this hoping you don't check this blog anymore, as writing things out as you think of them helps with the thinking process, well at least, that's what I've thought.

Secondly, yes people, this is a new layout. I again scammed it off blogskins.com, and I think it reflects that hint of background sarcasm and ignorance in my personality. I really do think its pretty, so it'll probably be here for the next few months before I decide its not as good as something else I find. =/ I know, I think the same thing. Heartless bastard.

Thirdly, I am so excited about end of exams. I know most of you have already finished, and I'm eagerly awaiting my turn. Oh boy oh boy, I've got all these things planned out for next week, and about a week into December. I can't wait! =] E.g. Kiama! Arr...the beach. Can't wait to live the beach life, me hearties. Savvy?

Fourthly, I have no idea how I'm going to pack all these activities I've planned with people into my timetable. I've already promised Jian I'd go summer school with her (learn japanese? learn guitar?). I've promised Dan I'd go Dancekool with him (I don't intend to skimp out on this one either!). I've sorta left a half-hanging promise to go gym either with Lily or taekwando with Sisi.
All this for the cost of ALOT OF $$$$$. Going to try restrict myself. I think about 1000 should cover for all my expenses these holidays. Haha, yes, I"m cheap. But with the holidays and all I won't be able to tutor all the time (kids have holidays). Money needs to be valued before its spent.

Fifthly, I need to organise with Yang Yang all these parties for the holidays! I mean, X'mas parties, outings etc. I'm thinking of many activities, but I think the next closest thing to be arranged would be paintball. Jeska mentioned discount tix, so that'll be cool. We also need to know who's going overseas this time around so we don't spam them with unnecessary emails.
I already know of Alfie, Bonnie, Kat, Linda, Yu Lin and Alice being away for the hols (Alice comes back in December so that's okay). We also need to know who's parents are going overseas or out of the house for a weekend or more; i.e we need to plan if we want to go to someone's place for party.

Sixthly, I can't wait to see all of you! =D =D =D So excited in fact, I can't focus and study anymore! Who cares...one bloody exam left. Its multiple choice, and I did the other multiple choice in 1/2 hour! HAW HAW HAW. I feel invincible! (<-- watch this space, possibly my own jinx and my own downfall for that would-be curse XD)

Labels: exams, Friends, holidays, uni

/because of my high tolerance.
2:48:00 PM

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I think the words 'Don't worry' should be banned, stripped apart and then dissected. After that, stomped on and incinerated. Similarly, I think the words 'Don't worry' should be replaced with the words 'DON"T PANIC!" because seriously, who could panic after seeing the phrase 'DON"T PANIC!'.

On a completely random tangent, I think I may have discovered the answer to life.
Its '42'. Genius no?

I hate Gerald Munch. It hurts when he rapes me like he did in today's test. =(

Also, go music. I actually like Jay Chou's latest album. Surprising...and scary, yet soothing and fun. There isn't any other way for me to express it but simply to leave it as....

"DON"T PANIC!"

Labels: exams, life, music

/because of my high tolerance.
11:18:00 PM

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-I'm usually a patient guy, but now this has started to get to me. Why though? I'm going to ignore my first instincts which naturally say, "Is it something I did?" because I know that's bullshit. I thought I made it very clear but clearly not enough. Circumstances upon chance they'd say, but to hell with that. Must be the exam stress making my head go haywire.
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-I have only seen you once, yet you act like we've known each other in ages. Please, get off my case. I've ignored your messages, your calls and your convos, yet you still won't leave me alone. Its becoming stalkerish, and trust me, your whinny personality is starting to overwhelm me. As much as I care about how your day is, you don't have to feel obliged to tell me what's happening all the time. There is a limit to how much you would tell a friend, and we're barely that. Please stop. I hate clingy, especially in people you're not even close to. It just makes you look sad.
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-Clinical exam on next Thursday. Am not prepared. Tutor sucks like hell and has not taught us anything significant since he's appeared. No wonder we didn't get you a gift. You were absolutely crap and gave us no inspiration as to why we aspire to be in this profession. You're tardy, scruffy, unshaven and worse. You use us to get out of your clinicals, and it leaves me no wonder as to why you chose respiratory - the most boring out of the lot - as your specialisation you boring person! Even when I tried to approach you afterwards to talk about things I didn't know, and even when I asked you to sign the medical research consent form, your poor memory retention to what I just said frustrates me. Thanks for showing up 5 times this entire semester, it really showed you cared.
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-Watched a crappy hip hop movie two days ago. I thought it would be interesting, seeing how its called "kung fu hip hop". It really isn't. Nothing fancy to start with, and Jordan Chan, please. Get the f*** off the screen. You can't sing, you can't act, and most of all, you can't dance. I can't believe you. You started off with dancing as your roots, and yet you still have to resort to doubles and stunt-tricks just to pull off what shouldn't be a complicated move to any bboy. It really makes the movie fail, what with Hyun Joon clearly outstripping you in every single dance routine. The girls however, were hot.

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-Done 30/60 lectures. I'm halfway there! T_T Fuck fuck fuck!!

Labels: bitching, emotions, exams, medicine, rant, stress, uni

/because of my high tolerance.
9:25:00 PM

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So I'm almost done with my EBM assignment, well technically, i've been almost done for about 3 hrs now. I've been trying to think of things to do to put it off, and I'm running out now, so I guess the last on the list is to blog about putting it off...

See how that works? Its genius!

Okay, I've also put myself on a facebook ban! That is, until exams are over. I'm sure I can do it, if it weren't for people always posting events on facebook all the time and wanting me to confirm! Yeah, I'll probably give in before that, but it still doesn't stop me from trying. So far I've been doing pretty well, so yay for me =D

I shouldn't be so negative actually. People want me to confirm because they care if I'm going, right? Well, I should be grateful I was invited to all these extravagent events! I really am. However, some of these events are quite pricey! $140 for a ticket for one day of fun? Hmm...I should've used that money to buy a Chris Brown/Rihanna show ticket. And another thing, I actually want to go to Good Vibes but it seems that clashes with another trip up to the coast. Oh dear oh my...

On a completely unrelated topic, here is my exam timetable
10/11 Scientific Basis of Medicine A Monday SAQ
12/11 Scientific Basis of Medicine B Wednesday SAQ
14/11 Scientific Basis of Medicine C Friday SAQ
17/11 Health Practice Monday
19/11 Scientific Basis of Medicine D Wednesday MCQ
21/11 Scientific Basis of Medicine E Friday MCQ

And then I'll be done =D
Alot of bloody exams, but spaced out. All good.

Labels: exams, uni

/because of my high tolerance.
8:23:00 PM

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Okay okay, so its a new theme. Well, technically, not that new of a theme anymore, since I put it on a week ago and havn't bothered to do anything about it. In addition, I scabbed it off blogskins, since I have zero html experience and I feel bad if I keep asking Yi to make one for me once every half year. And yeah, I wanted an anime type of feel to it (inner nerd ftw!) and this is the result. I was also partially inspired by my spelling mistake of 'cyane' (and again, kudos to Yi for pointing that out to me).

EDIT: Quite right Yi. It is indeed 'cyan'. I'm a slow learner, I'm afraid.

Moving on, I have been quite busy lately. There's a formative exam coming up on Monday, and I as always, feel like I havn't studied for it and I really should. Don't you just hate it when you know you oughta do something and especially when you know its not too late to change things but you just sit there and go, "yeah...I'll get to it later".

That's exactly how I felt...2 weeks ago. And 2 weeks later now I'm still thinking 'yeah..tomorrow. Definitely tomorrow'. But now its mixed with a tinge of 'omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg...'.
I'm also blogging right now because I have this little lull between students coming here for tutoring. You see, you may or may not be aware of this, but, ever since I've quitted working at Kmart, I've picked up alot more tutoring students. Every Saturday, I start tutoring from 11am-5pm, then have a little break for dinner before going again till 10:30pm. Fortunately, one of my students doesn't regularly show up in the 7pm slot, so I get a little more time off.

And I just sit there during the lessons, teaching, teaching and teaching...all the while staring at the clock. I don't mean to do it deliberately, but after you've taught the student and she's busy doing the question (yeah, all female students. Guys don't want tutoring or something?!), there's nothing to do except turn your pen and...look at the clock!

Okay, no more time to talk now, student is coming in! Blog next week this time maybe? XD

Labels: exams, life

/because of my high tolerance.
8:23:00 PM

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So I'm back at uni again. Been back for 2 weeks now. And slowly counting it down...12 more weeks, just 12 more weeks to go...

And it aint all bad. Exam marks came back, and I reckon they were deserving. Wish they were just a lil higher though. Regardless, it doesn't matter. It all depends on 2nd semester anyway...that's worth the muda-fookin 65%

Alot of people are spending their last week of holidays going out now; and although I cannot join you guys, I still wish you guys have fun...spending what's left of your cash. I know I've already gone broke during mine, and mine were half the length of yours.

Oh, and of course, saying happy birthdays' to Yi for turning 19 and Bonnie on turning 18 (on the 28th I know, but looking at my erratic posts, probably won't post in time)

My new timetable looks exactly the same as the old one, except now my clinical day is now moved to Thursday at 9am. Seriously, I hate my clinical doctor tutor. He sucks ass. Major ass. Last semester I think we had subs show up more than he ever did. And on the times he does show up, he turns up at least 1/2 hr late. To add to that, he keeps moving our times. From Tuesdays at 2pm (when he rocks up at 2:30pm) to Tuesdays at 2:30pm (where he shows up at 3pm) then to Thursdays at 10am (where he didn't even show) and now to Thursdays at 9am (yet to know if he'll turn up on time, but his track record isn't good). I have a half a mind to start a complaint, because at this rate, I'm going to fail my 2nd semester practicals. I cannot afford to have that happen. And he gives crappy feedback. Um...oh, and yeah! He's probably moving us around just to fill in his clinical rounds! Other doctors keep calling him and asking him where he is and he just answers, "I'm with my students at the moment..." Lame, lazy doctor.

On the bright side I can now do gastro-intestinal examinations, albeit shoddily. Stethoscope was also used for the 1st time. W00t~

And I also got myself a new phone. I'm now officially with '3' on the $29 cap for the LG U990, otherwise known as the LG Viewty.
Really sexy...
Having barely used it for 2 days, I can't really comment on it without considerable bias. Or shouts of enthusiam detailing just how sexy it is, how the touch-screen functionality is just really really cool, or just how phat the screen is, or the complete slickness of the 5 megapixel camera. I realise that going to uni now kind of means I should have outgrown that high-school fervent behaviour of whipping out the new phone and telling everybody, so I can only restrict myself to my blog here. =) Regardless, I'm very happy.

Here letting a holler that my new number is 0430 352 100. Store this if you're with 3. Otherwise, my existing number 0405 840 960 for any people with Optus.

There were other things that I wanted to say, but kinda want to do some tute homework now, so I shall post some other time.

OH OH OH! I remember something I have to post!
I've been reading Amy Tan lately (yes, the author of titles such as 'Joy Luck Club' and 'The Kitchen God's Wife') and having chanced upon this gem of a book titled 'The opposite of fate'. This book can be called her own autobiography of sorts, except its written as a jumbled series of memories in the form of entries, ranging from her own writing competition entries as an 8 year old to her own frustrated writing/thinking processes as a modern writer.

Extremely insightful and full of facts of life
I found tears welling in the confines of my eyes near 3 times at various sections of the book, although I'm sure its because of how well any Asian-Australian can relate to her own woes growing up as a child of two cultures. I recommend it as a must-read.
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Now playing: Fushigi Yugi - Itooshi hito no tameni (opening)

Labels: birthdays, blog, celebrations, exams, life, literature

/because of my high tolerance.
8:23:00 PM

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One last exam tomorrow and I'm not studying...Why?! Why must I fizz out the day beforehand...
And to add to that, I fucked up all my other exams. Fkn hell, this is like one of the few complaints I have about med. Fkn exams...

Although I'm sure that's what all you people also felt towards your exams, except two things.
1) You guys have finished your exams.
2) Medicine is hard for a reason. =.=

I can't speak for the people who do commerce/law related courses, because you guys suffer enough from your QMA's and other ongoing 'assignments', which I don't have. However, for you pharmacy people, I have no idea what you guys are complaining about. I looked at your exam papers and they're fkn easy. You guys cover nowhere near the same amount of shit that we do, and so your only valid complaint is that you guys have more exams than I do and that you finish later than I do.

But I must apologize, why am I raging against pharm people? Sorry. =[

I've done all but the 1999 and the 2000 Melbourne University medicine papers now and I'm averaging a FAIL in all of them.
2005 - 32%
2004 - 61%
2003 - 47%
2002 - 45%
2001 - havn't corrected with friends yet.
2000 - later tonight
1999 - an hr before exam

Incidentally, my last MCQ exam needs to be ranted at. We only ever had 1 lecture on embryology so why the fuck was there so many questions regarding cell specialisation; especially about the varying stages leading to blastocysts from oocytes!? What happened to the weeks of lectures spent on energy metabolism?! Like...2 questions asked about shit we did for 4 weeks consecutively and half the bloody paper on a lecture we did in bloody week 7!! UWS, fuck you.


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Now playing: Eiffel 65 - Blue (Da Ba Dee)
via FoxyTunes

Labels: emotions, exams, uni, UWS

/because of my high tolerance.
8:16:00 PM

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NOTE TO EVERYONE:
If you have anything planned during the holidays, I want in! I do NOT intend on staying home during the holidays. (Although I'm just saying that now, but I still want to stick to that as much as possible.)

In addition, I wish you all the best of luck in your exams and I'll be seeing you guys when finals are over.

Grit your teeth and smile....now everybody, say "Glucose-6-phosphate-dehydrogenase-deficiency!!"





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Labels: exams

/because of my high tolerance.
11:35:00 AM

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For my own reference:
Change of timetable

Unit Code	Unit Name	Day	Date	Start	Finish	Duration Hours:Mins	Location for your exam
400738	Health Practice 1	Wednesday	11/06/2008	2:45:00 PM	5:55:00 PM	3:10	BLDG 22 - Conference Room 5 CAMPBELLTOWN
400737	Scientific Basis of Medicine 1 (A)	Monday	16/06/2008	2:45:00 PM	5:55:00 PM	3:10	BLDG 10 1ST LEVEL ROOM 12 LR 17 CAMPBELLTOWN
400737	Scientific Basis of Medicine 1 (B)	Thursday	19/06/2008	2:45:00 PM	4:55:00 PM	2:10	BLDG 10 1ST LEVEL ROOM 18 LR 23 CAMPBELLTOWN
400737	Scientific Basis of Medicine 1 (C)	Monday	23/06/2008	2:45:00 PM	4:55:00 PM	2:10	BLDG 10 1ST LEVEL ROOM 18 LR 23 CAMPBELLTOWN

Officially in STUVAC period now. Time to study! (I sound slightly enthusiastic about that =.=)

Labels: exams

/because of my high tolerance.
11:32:00 AM

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Unit Code	Unit Name	Day	Date	Start	Finish	Duration Hours:Mins	Location for your exam
400738	Health Practice 1	Wednesday	11/06/2008	2:45:00 PM	5:55:00 PM	3:10	CANTEEN CAMPBELLTOWN
400737	Scientific Basis of Medicine 1 (A) Multiple Choice	Monday	16/06/2008	2:45:00 PM	4:55:00 PM	2:10	CANTEEN CAMPBELLTOWN
400737	Scientific Basis of Medicine 1 (B) Short Answer	Thursday	19/06/2008	2:45:00 PM	4:55:00 PM	2:10	CANTEEN CAMPBELLTOWN
400737	Scientific Basis of Medicine 1 (C)	Monday	23/06/2008	2:45:00 PM	4:55:00 PM	2:10	CANTEEN CAMPBELLTOWN

Oh, and lol at "Location for your exam". CANTEEN CAMPBELLTOWN. lololololololololol...that cracks me up so much. I just hope they don't mean that literally...o.O Kind of a waste of the student exam centre XD
As Vy said, 'thankyou exam timetabling gods'.
So I'll be finished within 2 weeks AND be done a week before my birthday!
YAY!
So its...
5 weeks and counting till finals begin.

Labels: exams

/because of my high tolerance.
4:39:00 PM

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An Anecdote I wrote for English Advanced at the start of Year 11. I found so many pieces of writing that I did that was just fantastic. One of the few times I think I was honest. Got me an A too. XD

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I remember in the deepest recesses of my brain, a tiny bit of my disturbing memories lurked. As a child in my primary school, nobody cared about my wellbeing except for my friends, and even then, barely. Studying at Hurstville Public for a few years, I would never forget the exhiliration I felt when my hands first touched that letter of acceptance into the 'OC' class. Standing for 'Opportunity Class', a select few students were offered a place into these classes. Like the name suggests, the classes aim to provide its students better chances into getting a place in one of NSW's more prestigious 'selective' high schools. At first, I didn't realise the letter was offering me a place, I just stared at the envelope thinking, "The letter's so small, it probably says I didn't make it." I was expecting a large yellow envelope or something similar. I just stared at the envelope until I decided to pass it on to Mother to open, as I couldn't bear to handle the disappointment. Imagine my surprise when Mother broke down and cried all over me, holding the letter in her hand. I blanked and thought, "Its not that bad, is it?!" After another half hour of confusion and chinglish, both sides were at an understanding. Mother laughing at my ignorance and me even more confused at how I made the class and why God liked messing with me.

So there I was, an 'OC boy' as they call it. One of the elite. The upperclass of school society. My fellow classmates all whispered to one another and pouted, "You know him? Yeah, the guy with that weird name, he made OC. Be careful, he's not like us." I thought, "how different could I be? I'm still the same person. Nothing's changed." But it seemed my status said otherwise. Although I was respected for being an OC, I was neglected in terms of friendship. My mates all thought I was above them, and insisted on our separation, pointing out all our differences. I had never been more confused...

I never thought of myself as 'superior' or 'elite', but my peers all passed me off in that manner, so naturally, I thought I was what they thought I was. In the majority of my peers, I found a niche of other 'OC's' that shared and reflected my situation. I was lonely in terms of friendship, but friendly in terms of classmates. Naturally, we bonded. Since 'OC' classes didn't officially start until the next year, all we had was the label 'OC' without any difference to my classmates. Again, confusion and desolation didn't disappear until I was amongst the other 'OC's'

Over the holidays, I considered what being an OC would require. I was told that only one in every ten people were offered a place in an 'OC' class, which meant that put me in the top ten percent of the state. I was terrified what that meant. "Is there going to be lots of homework? Will i be liked by the teacher? Does that mean there will be more pressure on me?" It isn't until now I realised that those questions are shared between each individual who goes to a new school or applies for a new job.

Once term started, I found myself struggling in a lot of areas academically. What I found more disturbing was I was even more worried about how I was doing socially. Puberty had started...

I hung out with David Tran, a good friend of mine to today. Being a smart person with a very perceptive mind, I relaxed around him. I also hung out with Kevin and Michelle, both being really exceptional friends, with the latter becoming one of my besties today. Since our parents were colleague's at work, we often hung out together. They helped me out when needed and I returned the favour. The year settled into a pattern of ups and downs, much like my testosterone.

By the end of the first 'OC-ed' year, I had grown exponentially in height and I easily dwarfed the class. They were intimidated by my height and I used the advantage in open intimidation. I had also taken an interest in girls. I started taking notice of the girls in my class and no longer looked upon them as alien creatures, but captivating, attention grabbing things. mind you, I still regard their habits as alien, but at least I understand them better. It wasn't just me either. By the first term in year six, I noticed the other guys stealing some glances at particular girls. Being the only guy to consistently talk to girls, ie Michelle, I gained quick access to the gossip hotline the girls were engaged on. I often laughed at the rumours, and sometimes believed them, but looking back today I truly realise how laughable my immaturity was.

The pressure started to come in when the selective school exam date loomed closer and closer. All notions of primary romance were forgotten as heads were nosed into textbooks and pens flew across paper. The anticipation for the end of the exam signified the need to study more for it. Day in and day out were devoted to Maths, English and General Ability.

Pressure from parents also started pouring in. The Chinese Gossip Queen, ie, my Mother, the phone and her friends, provided a wealth of information on my expected marks and what I should I be striving to get. As a result, their conclusion was reflected amongst the Chinese community: tuition. So for four days a week I was sent to tutoring with Kevin and Michelle to learn the finer points of algebra and narratives.

Two months passed in this fashion and finally, the big day came. Nerves were raw, tension was high and a continuous build of nervousness were realised. I felt totally unprepared. My voice was broken, my kneecaps ached and I had a bad cold. "Why?!" I almost cried out, "Why did the almighty have to test me again? I hated what was happening to my body, and I hated the fact I was sick on the most important event in my life at that point. I just wanted things to be like what they used to be, before I made OC. I wanted to cry.

Now that wasn't the best way to feel when an important exam is in your face. I somehow survived it. Actually, I did quite well considering my tornado of emotions. I've managed to enter a selective high school, keep my friends and even gained control over my body again.

When I look back, I realise that alot of what has happened was forced upon me. Even now I find many of what I do still decided by higher powers. As I prepare for my HSC, I know that I will be expected to adopt more events that will aid me in the HSC. Like it was in primary, it is now in selective. I can only do what fate has alloted for me, and hope for the best.

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sigh...so true.

Labels: blog, emotions, exams, literature, memories, rant, stories, stress

/because of my high tolerance.
1:45:00 PM

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I have zero school pride. It's strange really, when I'm so focussed on creating memories through any media format. I think I connect with the people in my life, rather than the circumstances that arranged my perchance meetings with those special people.

It confuses me, sometimes, when people chant vehemently their school name continuously with pride in their voices, and I just feel absent and disjointed when amongst the crowd, no matter how minute, who are all screaming, "HIGH! HIGH! HIGH!"

Sure, if its a game, I'll support my own team, but when I thought about it, I would only support it fully if the team in question actually had a person I knew and connected with. If it were to be filled with randoms, then I'd probably lose all my enthusiasm towards watching the game.

This analogy I can probably extend to almost anything else that is a location in my life. My primary school, my suburb, my high school, heck; I'd go even as far as say I'm also unpatriotic in that I don't really have 'Aussie pride'. Not that I'd deliberately go out of my way and protest against my own country, but rather my feelings towards this country would probably be equivalent to my feelings towards China and Britain. (I do however, have a distaste for America. Canada ftw!)

Now, don't get me started with shit about 'azn pride', because truthfully, I'd rather not. I detest people who swing those words so idly into my face, "Where'z your azn pride, my chigga?!" I know I'd probably just smile at you and make some random crack joke in return, but honestly, inside, its hollow again. Especially since I came to Australia when I was 3, I can't exactly pinpoint what you mean when you tell me you have 'azn pride'. Furthermore, the fact that I've been here since I was that young and that I've probably retained a larger sense of my own cultural heritage/fads/fashion sense than aforementioned annoyance would only reinforce my argument. Please, if you're not 'fob' (<-- another example of annoying ignorance), then don't arbitrarily call people that unless its a sign of affection. --- Onto another subject of school ranks? I know my blog readers would rather avoid reading school related marks, so just ignore the rest of this post if you will. Just that I'd rather write this down in my blog rather than forget later on.
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Highlight if you really want to read you busybodies. =P Trial results and ranks if known:
English Adv: Paper 1: 38/55. 210 students
English Adv: Paper 2: 48/60. 210 students
English Extension: 45/50, 2nd. 45 students.
Maths 4U: 36th. 122 students. (<--no comment)
Maths 3U: 62th. 180 students.(<--no comment)
Physics: 39th. 128 students.
Chemistry: 47th. 108 students.
projected UAI: 97-98?
Really really really need to king my interview now... I've failed 2/2 interviews atm, so please please let me do well in this one.

Labels: exams, medicine, rant, school, stress

/because of my high tolerance.
7:52:00 PM

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okay, I'm going to be totally honest right now (which is something I rarely do in real life, let alone in a stupid public blog open for the world to read).

You ready for it?


Sure?

Okaaaaaayyyy.....

*takes a deep breath*

I'M GOING TO FUCKING FAIL EXTENSION ENGLISH IN 2 HOURS AND THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT!!!!!!



AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
WITH ALOT OF GG'S IN THE MIDDLE!!!!!


OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG...
ITS IN LIKE 3 HRS AND I'VE JUST FINISHED WRITING MY ESSAY AND CREATIVE...

*sob

what if i just slit my wrist right now....

hmm...

edit:
lol..when I got to school, there was this like..major major accident off cleveland street (again) and I just made the test.

Some poor guy died I think because I saw a body and white sheet covering him/her next to this trashed up motorbike. When I was at Central I was like, why is the bus moving so slow, and when everybody started going on detoured roads, I was only thinking about myself and how late I was, and when I started running off the bus towards the blocked road of Cleveland, then it struck me something serious had happened.

It was just crazy...poor guy...

as for the test itself, it wasn't as bad as I thought. Since there was no way in hell I could remember the essay+creative i'd written, I completely winged that test. Made up quotes and critics and dates and stuff. I even made up an entire supplementary. I was originally going to use an anime as a supplementary(OTAKU!!!), but then decided that'll probably work against me...

so i changed the anime Rurouni Kenshin into a novel written in 1893 during the Meiji period instead of as an anime about the Meiji Period in 1996.

Only one test to go!!
(I drove home from Hurstville after two schooners and didn't display my P plates...@_@. Pffftt....like I was going to crash anyway! *looks away*)

Labels: blog, exams, HSC

/because of my high tolerance.
9:57:00 AM

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That was the easiest assessment task I've ever done in my life.
If I lost a mark, I would cry.

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On a sidenote, do you know what I really want?

This book by the name of
'Twelve fail-safe ways to charm witches'

Imagine how popular I'd be amongst witches if I had that book!
sigh....


Yeah, I'm doing anything I can to avoid thinking about extension English. If there is any way I am so going to fail that. Good thing its only worth 10%. Yay. So even I screw up, I lose like 3%. Oh well, its not like even if I rip tomorrow's test, its going to change any of the ranks anyway.

hehehe. I just thought about replacing the term 'witch' with 'bitch'. Haha...now that would be closer to reality XD.

Labels: exams, HSC

/because of my high tolerance.
8:20:00 PM

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